So at last Saturday’s staff dessert my dear husband had our summer staff take a candle and they passed the flame among themselves and then began lighting little candles on the ground outside of the Fox Den. He then explained that the 117 blue candles represented all the kids that gave their hearts to Christ and the 377 white candles represented the kids that recommitted their lives to Christ.

Ya know there are very few things that really matter in life, but knowing Jesus is the most important.

Praising God that 33 years ago I said, “I do” to Dave Gould and that the Lord has blessed us beyond measure with the privilege of watching God transform lives here at Gilead. We are so grateful for the amazing people we get to work alongside in ministry…the summer staff and year round staff…you humble us with your sacrifice, service and love for God and His people. Well done good and faithful servants. We love you…we thank you!

I have a propensity to worry…it quite often is what causes me to write these posts at 2 or 3 in the morning. And my natural curious nature doesn’t always help alleviate my worries. I gravitate to reading the obituariaries and stories about accidents and traumas. I worked in Medical Records for 18 years in 4 different hospitals and I have read about all sorts medical disasters. One of my favorite board games is “Worst Case Scenario.” All this background and of mine tends to expand my already expansive imagination about the “what ifs” of life. A wise counselor of mine that was trying to help me get over my fear flying told me to stop reading all the articles in the paper about airplanes with engine failures etc, because it was fueling my fears. It really caught my attention. She told me everytime I read articles like that I was retraumatizing myself.

What about you friend? What do you read about that perpetuates your fears and expands your repetoire of fearful possibilities?

Pauls were so wise, “…whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me–put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.” Philippians 4:8-10

Peace is not going to come through rehearsing the “ick” of our lives or the “ick” of others lives. It is going to come by reminding ourselves over and over again of God’s faithfulness to look after us, provide for us and walk with us on the ugliest and most painful days of our lives. He has not walked off the job and He never will.

And all though there are people in this world that are not noble or lovely or admirable and they hurt us…those individuals are not bigger than God. The hurt they inflict on us does not need to define us or dictate our future, however, those individuals quite often are the ones that the Lord uses to make us drop to our knees in dependence on Him.

“I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.” Psalm 34:4

“The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. A righteous man may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all; he protects all his bones, not one of them will be broken.” Psalm 34:18,19

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As I am in my mid-fifties now and I reflect on our society one thing that I am surprised by is the incredible amount of loneliness and isolation I see. We are one of the most advanced, wealthy and sophisticated countries in the world and yet loneliness is everywhere.When I was reading 2 Kings 2:11 about the departure of Elijah to heaven and his parting question to the man he had mentored, Elisha, I was struck by the profound loneliness Elisha must have felt as the mantle of leadership fell onto him now.Elijah said to Elisha, “Tell me, what can I do for you before I am taken from you?” “‘ Let me inherit a double portion of your spirit,’ Elisha replied.”  Matthew Henry writes, “He asks not for wealth, nor honour, nor exemption from troubles, but to be qualified for the service of God and his generation.”As God takes Elijah to heaven, Elisha looks on and cries out to his mentor “My father! My father!”Elisha is to face the needs of his generation without the benefit and counsel of his mentor. A lonely and potentially scary place to be.

The times we live in are extraordinary…the world has never looked quite like it does right now with the incredibly advanced technology alongside profound spiritual and emotional poverty.So how do we navigate through uncertain times when those we have relied on, our elders are passing into the next life? Elisha mourned the loss of his spiritual father and then he picked up his cloak. Elisha would wear Elijah’s cloak and would serve with the authority and power it symbolized.  So to with us, as those we have looked to for spiritual wisdom and counsel passed on, we can pick up the mantle left behind and walk with a holy confidence as we emulate their absolute and complete reliance on God.And as God said to Joshua after his mentor Moses had died, “As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. Be strong and courageous.” Joshua 1:5,6a

Praise the Lord, that we serve a God that is present for all generations, not just the generations of the past. What a comfort. We are not alone to face the struggles of our day. “Not for a moment did He forsake” nor will He ever.

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